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Now a days, when i see other people graduation photos, i feel disappointed.


why? u might ask, coz i'm not graduating this year, i have to stay back one more year, 6 months because i failed my Managerial Accounting 1.


well, i'm not going to complain the unfairness in why i've failed, i'm not gonna rant about how pathetic and loser i felt for a long time before i can come out and make a post on this.


not like i've gotten over this fact that i'm not graduating together with my friends but i told myself, its time to face the reality and accept the fact in life that i've failed and move on in life. so i'm not over it, it still ache my heart but i've accept it.


I know most of you will think this is no big a deal, but it is for me, i've tried so hard all these 3 years in my whole poly life not to fail one subject and of coz, i've never failed once. 


So, imagine the heart pain when i failed the last year's subject where repeating it would mean couldn't graduate.


Well, when life throw lemons at you, you make lemonade right. So i told myself, crying won't help, since the life gave me a huge lemon, i'm gonna squeeze it dry, make the lemonade and show the life that i'm not giving up.


So during this one last semester, i've thought of what i'm going to do during the 6 months. 


I'm gonna take this as a chance to do things that i couldn't do all these 3 stressful, chaotic years.


I'll work part time, do some volunteer works and maybe learn a thing or two of what i didn't have the chance to do.


As time passed, i have the courage to face the fact and say it out to people without feeling the intense pain. 


And i realised, i, myself is the only enemy who is making it seem like its the end of the world and making me feel the remorse, when i told my friends and people around me, they replied me, 'its okay, do well and kick that subject's ass'.


I use to feel the regret of failing it at first, now i don't anymore. 


I blamed myself and felt ashamed for being a disgrace and a failure, now i don't anymore because forgiving myself is the most important right now so that i have a chance to go on.




U only see who are your true friends when u fall down, its true coz during that time, i found true friends who helped me up, dusted off the pains and supported me.


Geraldine was there to give me the encouragement that i needed, Ruth and Cindy was there to find the ways i can go, Daya was there to make me feel all better and recently Ann also gave me a way.


And to my parents, who understand me and gave me the strength by believing in me. 


Because of these people, walking on this painful road was less easier.


Geraldine and Daya asked me to go to the graduation ceremony, I was reluctant at first, so many thoughts of 'how i'm going to face my friends', 'how i'm going to tell them when i'm not in my graduation robe' and such....


but now, i don't care anymore. 


I'll be there, at the graduation ceremony, sitting in those seats with my friends' proud parents, clapping as my friends goes up on the stage.


If people ask me, i will reply with a smile on my face to why i'm not graduating. 


Life might be unfair and i've failed but i still have a chance to make it all right.


So my friends, i might not be graduating with u all but i'll be there in the photos of urs to keep the memory.


Life goes on, chances are given, grab those chances and strive for better in life. Yea, thats right, so MA1 look out, i'm on my way to kick your ass so bad!






"All of us have someone who is hidden in the bottom of the heart, when we think of him, we will feel like ummmmm....always feel a little pain inside but we still want to keep him. Even though i don't know where he is today, what he is doing, but he is the one who make me know this, a little thing called LOVE"
Have u said 'I Love You' to your loved ones 2day?


so many of us quote these, retweet these, like these but after that do you really say it?

i can assure you, 90% of us don't, count me in....


its not that we know these people who we treasure are going to leave us one day, but its just that we didn't expect it to be soon


and then when it happens, BAM! it hit you and you are left with regrets


so, well i'm gnna say it,


To,

- Mom, Dad, Sis
- Cindy
- Meyi
- Nadia
- Mandy
- Ann
- Daya
- Ruthie
- Clara
- Geraldine


I LOVE YOU & I MEAN IT.


Nothings wrong, just thinking about the 9/11, and thought how much people who are in that building would love to have said the last 'I Love You' when they had the chance, before they die.


How much would they want to hear it back from their loved ones, how much agony they would have felt at that exact time.......


So here i am dedicating this post to my loved ones (who have came into my life and knowing the mistakes s i did, how bad i am or everything and still with me all these while..) just to say 'I Love You'


So many of us say 'I Love You' too easily...


So easy, it doesn't means anything anymore. i don't like to express what i feel outright most of the times, when i pick on you, when i was being truthful to you, when i lied to you for your protection...


just know that i really love you and it matters more than anything for me to see you smile.


These days, it have become a norm to say i love you, to friends, to your boyfriend/girlfriend, just to make the other party feels treasured.


Well, i have an opinion, does that 'I Love You' still effective, when friends quarrel and you find out how much that friend is different from the person you have expected?


When a relationship breaks, can you still come out and say 'I Love You' to your ex?


In a relationship, especially for teenagers, i would say its more of 'like', like to the extent of love, but it was never love, if its the love, there would never be break ups, divorces......


Love would go through so many tests between the 2 parties involve, be it time, trust or distance...and you still tries hard to forgive and forget and make it work coz you love him/her, isn't it?


U noe apart from the 'I Love You' problem, there's another one, 'Sorry'


'Sorry', so simple yet really effective...


people say 'sorry' all the time, but think back after u said it, do you really mean it, the 'sorry' that escaped form your mouth, was it a sincere 'sorry' or just something that you say so that it would appease the other party just so there's harmony?


I would give anything for harmony between friends, everyone i know, but not 'sorry', its something i say when i only really mean it....


Saying these 2 things, its like a cheap slut


so many thinks shes great, pretty, make people happy


but when it comes to the real sincerity, will people choose her, the easy one who just agrees on anything, the easy one who only cares about what others think of her but not about her values?


So readers, next time you say 'I Love You' or 'Sorry' think back of whether you really meant it or not


value your words and mean it with all your sincerity when you say it.... Its been so long i update....


My sem 3.1 juz ended! wheeeew...like finally can breathe, for like a while coz guess what, i have internship in less than a week and its all filled with things i have to do before the internship start, like no break!


i wouldn't blame anyone, and i dun think its rite, this is something we have to do isn't it? so y complain and make a fuss about this.


i dun care where i go as long as i have a great and fun working atmosphere, it'll be alright.


like the feeling i go for work for PL, neva felt tired from thinking of about it coz there are friends.


Mom is in Myanmar now, so basically i'm on a lose! hahahaha no i din mean like going clubbing and not coming home kind,


only sleeping, eating, not doing chores and all...hehehe


not that bad...rite?


i noe i have like countless amount things to update on this blog but i very lazy to type out the whole thing and then upload picutres...recently blogging has become a boring thing to do.


for my exam, i think i will be able to do well for all except MA, like seriously, i dun hope for any A or B, i just hope to pass it so that i dun nid to study again!


and i'll be watching SS3 3D with daya on 13th, b4 SIP starts! heeeeeee i love it!


so many things have happened and it have changed how i look at the world, i guess its maturity.


i start to grow up during the event.


i would say CEM is a god send subject, we have the best teacher, the whole class bonded and had fun (with a little bit of conflicts here and there) and learnt alot through doing this event, and its the only subject i dun have to worry about studying for exam!


and...i have been doing alot of people nails. thinking of nail art tutorial, but i dun think i have the right to the designs, more like no confidence?


got nothing to update rite now, i dunnoe what to. so i shall bid my goodbye here!


bye~~~~~


P.S. i noe its boring but dun leave, do come visit!!! :D

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