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Time To Let Go........ :'(
Wednesday, December 1, 2010 | 1:45 AM | 0 comments
Life is weird, I AM WEIRD.Isn't there always a time in your life where you are trying soooooo hard that when things get really messed up, you just want to give up and ended up crying alone for all the heartaches that u've been trying to hide all these times? Isn't there always a time, when you are in a dilemma of whether to give up or not and u decided not to coz you don't have the courage to juz throw away everything? I guess thats the weirdness of life..... for me things have been half emotions, half happiness these days.... going to school is always fun coz of my grp..... I love sch, I love the times we spend together everyday, I love the fact the we can juz laugh out loud at every little things, I love the fact that i can be myself, i love the fact that i look like a bimbo in front of these blondes. I love the fact that my friends are hurting for me coz of that someone. these are things i have never thought of getting while i was growing up, bullied by those guys in sec 1 and 2.... if i've ever known i'm gnna get over it and have these kinda great friends in the past, i would juz laughed out loud there, ignored them and wouldn't have suffered much.... oh well past is past..... its funny when i'm laughing out loud with my friends, half of me is thinking abt how i've been treated by that someone, its painful to be used....its not decent at all....i have been really stupid to have started it all.... i've never really say how i'm feeling out loud to my friends, i've never cried in front of a friend coz its so painful ...i guess instead of crying, laughing out loud is my way of getting over things.... why? simple reason, i dun like ppl being sad and hurt for me.... i've been trying hard to let it slide, acting strong, like its not bothering me mucch when my friends asked me, but inside it sting too much until i can't take it, until i want to break down rite there...... today, i cried, while typing this, let out all the pain that i've been trying to hide in me i thank you for letting me realise i have true friends beside me and a friend like you is not worth of my effort...... these tears that are rolling down will be the last for you, YOU ARE SUCH A WASTE TO MY KINDNESS.....U AREN'T WORTH IT. You lead such a pathetic life coz i can assure you, you'll never find these kinds of friends that i have rite now. I'm letting go............. |
